new phone still booting up
it’s taking forever
Listen to me. You can wear a croptop even if you're fat. You can wear a bikini. A short skirt. A dress with an open back. Biker shorts. You can wear whatever you want.
i’m back! i’ve got my new phone! yay!
new phone day!
Babe, uncomfortable feelings are a part of life. They will come, as they have right now. They will go, as they always have. Then they’ll come back again, but they’ll also go again. There is no ‘peak existence’ that doesn’t include emotional discomfort. So, make some space for it, watch your little show, eat a little treat— a little enjoyment can co-exist with your discomfort. Try again tomorrow.
“i feel like i have no purpose” You are not a fixed entity. You do not have one grand, singular, constant purpose. As long as you have genuine intent behind your actions, everything you do serves a purpose. As long as you are truly present, you notice that everything contributes to a greater whole. You do not need to dedicate yourself endlessly to one practice to achieve a purpose; allow yourself to oscillate freely between them all. Experiment. You are not one dimensional: treat yourself as such.
bpd will never not scare me when it gets like this. when i cannot control my mind and i get into bad situations. i don’t mean to, life gets overwhelming, to an extreme extent where everything feels like it’s the end of the world. my mind imploded and i just had to do stupid shit.
note -
“i’m sorry” are very empty words,
there are no words to describe this,
i’m bad at saying goodbye so i’ll say nothing,
someone, somewhere may be able to translate,
i know where i am headed tonight,
and the mourning will say more than i ever could.
thelilylav